Rise in the Darkness
If you pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as the noonday.
When John Allen asked me to write a weekly devotional, I immediately said yes. But then I thought, what will I say, and fear entered my heart. Over the last year I have been trying to figure out what the next years of my life will be like. I have worked full time since I was 20 and now in my 67th year, I think, how will I take this next step, how will I fill my time with meaningful activities? When I was 20, I spoke about making an impact one step at a time. Have I done that? Did I make an impact in my life or in the lives of others? As I age will I become irrelevant? What will I do if I can’t remember things as well as I have in the past?
So, I did what most of us would do, I asked others what they have done. I tried to open my heart and mind to new possibilities, worrying about how I would see meaning in my life; how would others value me; and how would I value myself.
I entered the GIFT program last winter and in our group we shared very personal stories. We spoke about how God called us and I realized that much of what I have done for work has been around home, place making, helping people create homes that are comfortable and connected to their inner life. So when Margaret Taylor and Ruth Breden said they really needed people to help with Family Promise, I thought “why not me,” isn’t this a perfect expansion of what I do as an interior designer, making a home for others as they try to find their own home. In some weird way, because I have a hard time admitting that I believe in God, the Holy Spirit called me to help out in this way with our homeless families.
Maybe this is the beginning of my next phase. Maybe I will be more connected to God and to the Holy Spirit as I try to create a space where these families can have some comfort as they figure out what the next years of their lives will be.
Prayer: Holy Spirit, be with all of us as we try to discern what our next steps will be.